For Leaving......

For leaving you...... I'm sorry.
For leaving you...... I feel like shit.
For leaving you.....I feel horrible.
For leaving you.....I feel like we cant have what we once did.
For leaving you..... I feel that you don't want me anymore.
For leaving you...... I feel that I could've been a better man for you.
For leaving you...... I feel that I think straight anymore
For leaving you......I feel that I cant go on without you in my life.
I know what I was wrong. I know that I made a bad decision. Had I sat and thought I know for sure that I wouldn't have made that choice. I just went off anger, and I know you always told me never to do that. Sometimes I listen, and sometimes I don't. But Onika I love you. I still do. I guess I was just hurt because of you welcoming Ziare back in, then kicking him out, then going to see him in the middle of the night..... I don't know, it just got to me.
After all of the history with him. Like do you remember that night.......

Safaree looked out over New York as he wrote the letter, remembering the night of December 16th of 2002........

"I'm pregnant Safaree...." He looked at Chrissy shocked out of his mind.
"Really Baby?"
"Yes..." She said with a low voice.
"Damn....." Safaree started off saying.
"What the hell is that supposed to mean Safaree!?!" Chrissy yelled standing up. He grabbed her arm.
"Baby.... Chill out. I'm happy for our baby. But we are young.... I mean I'm only seventeen."
"Well you should've thought about that when you stuck your dick in me without a condom." Safaree looked at her and just shook his head.
"You know, I'm right so I don't know why you shaking your big ass head for." Chrissy said to him.
"Will you calm your hot ass down. Chill out. I'm going to get some extra hours at the Department store, and help you. I'm going to stand by your side....."
"I hope so. Cause this is your baby boy... And I'm going to need you the most. So all of you running to Nicki after you get off of work, and stuff. That has to stop. We are your top priority now." Chrissy said putting her hand on her stomach.
"Baby Boy?.... A son?" Safaree said smiling.
"Well, I'm not sure its a boy... I'm only six weeks but I hope it is."
"I want a little girl but I will love my son just like I would my daughter...." Safaree said wrapping his arms around Chrissy. He leaned in, and kissed her lips. Their tongues wrestled back, and forth until Safaree felt a hand pushing them apart. Safaree looked down at the person.
"Get Your Fucking Hands Off Of Him!!!!" Nicki yelled.
"Who the fuck are you talking to?" Chrissy asked pulling off her earrings. Without any words Nicki just swung on her hitting her in the right eye. Chrissy stumbled back, and Nicki swung again hitting her in the left eye. She then jumped on top of Chrissy punching her all in the face, head, and neck.
"You Bitch!!!!" Safaree grabbed Nicki by the waist.
"STOP ONIKA!!!!" He yelled pulling her off of Chrissy. Nicki had her by the neck, hitting her repeatedly in the face. Nicki tightened her grip slowly choking Chrissy. Ziare ran from up the street, running up on the fight. The whole neighbor hood was coming outside seeing the fiasco. Ziare helped Safaree by grabbing Nicki's hand from around Chrissy's neck. Once Nicki saw his face she punched him as well. Safaree was pulling Nicki back so she raised her foot, and kicked Ziare in the face with her Timberland boot.
"YOU PIECE OF SHIT!!!" Safaree fell back in the grass, holding Nicki while she yelled. He sat up, and held on to Nicki turning her to him.
"WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU ONIKA!?!?" Nicki didn't answer.... She just wiped her tears away.
"WHAT IS WRONG?!?" Safaree yelled again, shaking Nicki a little.
"THEY WAS FUCKING IN MY APARTMENT!!! THEY WAS CHEATING ON US WITH EACH OTHER!!!!" Nicki yelled at Safaree. Safaree face looked hurt. He just pushed Nicki off of him, and got up. He walked over to Chrissy, and helped her up. Then picked her up.
"Nicki, I cant let you fight her because of that. Yeah, She was wrong but I cant let you do this to her. She is in a condition." Nicki looked at Safaree like he was a damn fool.
"WELL YOUR ASS SHOULD KNOW THAT, THE BABY SHE IS HAS IN HER WOMB ISNT YOUR'S!!! ITS ZIARE'S!!" Nicki yelled getting up. Safaree stood there holding Chrissy. He put her down, and grabbed her arms.
"Is it true?"
"Safaree....." Chrissy said holding her face.
"Is it true?" Safaree asked again.
"Safaree.....Baby...."
"Don't fucking 'Baby' and 'Safaree...' me!!! Is it true!?!?" He yelled at her while being in her face.
"Yes...... Its true...." Safaree didn't say a word, he just let her go. He looked in her eyes, and shook his head, as tears spilled from his eyes. He reached his hand out, and grabbed her's. He snatched the promise ring he gave her off, and bumped her out of his way. Safaree walked past everyone with his head hung low. He walked out of the gate, in front of Chrissy's house, and walked down the street.
"SAFAREE!!!!" Chrissy yelled. Nicki just crept up behind her, and punched her.
"Dont worry about him. He is in good hands." With that being said Nicki took off behind Safaree......

....... I just felt that you wouldn't be so accepting to welcome him back in. It shocked me. But I am really sorry for walking out on you. I feel bad that I broke that promise that I made to you. But just give me one more chance, and I will prove to you that I am a better man now, and I am the one for you... Please....

Safaree looked down at his letter to Nicki. He just picked up his Snapple, and sipped it. He had so much more to write to her..... And the writing starts now.
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This is the full history of what happened back in the day with Ziare, Nicki, Chrissy, and Ziare..... Comment!